My Geo Notes

Ever wonder why things keep happening all over again, as if you’re being given chances to do things right—but you keep failing, and suddenly you find yourself back at the beginning once more? You can’t help but ask: When will this end? When will I reach the finish line? It’s a cycle that keeps pulling you back to where you made the wrong move. Again, you’re presented with choices, like a test to see if you can decide wisely this time.

It’s exhausting, but the truth is, we can’t really control it. Not until we make the right move—that’s when we unlock the next door. What? There’s another door? When will this end? That’s the normal reaction. But isn’t that what life is all about? The journey of discovering the right path.

As an impatient person, I get frustrated not seeing a clear direction. Of course, I want certainty—I want the clearest path. I’ve been searching for so long that I forgot to appreciate the distance I’ve already covered, not realizing how far I’ve come and how different I am from who I used to be. I’ve been so obsessed with the outcome that I failed to see the beauty in what these cycles have taught me. I thought I was being pulled backward, that I was getting nowhere—but the truth is, I’m already somewhere. Somewhere—not there yet, but getting closer. Someday.

Time—my greatest fear right now. I can’t wait for that “someday.” After counting days of overthinking, I’ve already gone through 1,825 days (five years), and I still haven’t reached where I want to be. Time feels so slow. At the same time, I’m getting older—so time feels fast. Where do I stand? Should I risk another five years, or should I let go of this obsession?

After all, I might see this as “nothing yet” through eyes that are too blinded to notice that, someday, all of this will make sense.